Ramblings at the ganga that

Just recently i had been to calcutta on 14/1/2010 to get some peace and some questions answered for myself. it was a wonderful journey to the ganga that near belur mutt and dakshineshwar.
here are few of my ramblings through the days.


1. there is no truth other than "krishna", you have to live in truth that works for you to remain sane! alternatively you can live with the generalized mainstream truth.
2. your truth is unique for you and is driven by your values
3. you can change your truth by intellectually altering your values and inhibitions.
4. religion, law, nation, or policy or society is for those who are limited, it is to follow and conform for sanity
5. everything is impermanent or transient by nature except the transience
6. there is nothing called as you! you are not real but a monumental illusion ( Some say i'm what i choose to be - my choices, my actions _ LImited to the manifestation of Chitta)
7. your gross has no identity or your identity is not the gross!
8. for the materialistic world, that dwells in the perception of several sense organs, you are who you choose to be. Therefore you can choose to be anything at any times,
⁃ therefore there is no one set of identity that can describe you unless you choose to be the same one choice
9. there is no purpose in life! you have to give a purpose to life to have some sanity
10. life in itself is a purpose (?) - for what? any clarity or discussion from readers is welcome
11. there is nothing called as love but what manifests as need for each other is glorified as love.
12. there are only needs of different flavors beautified and sanctified for several reasons
13. in the game of emotional needs, two people who are beggars of this need have to satisfy each other of their needs in varied forms and times to keep the fundamentals of a relationship alive
14. every bondage always has its own terms and conditions, the bondage of emotional need has the most severe ones and also severe repercussions.
15. Of all the needs of a human being, emotional needs are the most strongest one that could propel or make one sink
16. imaginary variable in an equation is a big failure of our intellectual imaginations.
17. When one gives up several needs, the terms and conditions of a bondage decreases
18. He starts to be released of the trap slowly, but one mistake while trudging this uphill road can make you fall the depth of Antarctica.
19. While on this journey, when the gross needs, emotional needs, materialistic needs and all other needs start to diminish, the existence of the gross or connection to the gross starts diminishing
20. To reach this level, one has to pass through several hurdles of illusionary traps, sacrifices and utmost love to krishna,
21. On what seems like an end of this journey, the person has no bondage, and his mind is rooted only in krishna, the soul has started its connections to the absolute.
22. at this state slowly the gross seizes to exist, though i sometimes see this as my journey, i have not experienced such a sort of gross disconnections as yet. rather i get tempted to get back to the world
23. at some state i think when one is aware of the gross , the awareness of the soul increases. Perceiving the absolute increases, existing in the gross diminishes.
24. at some similar further state, the soul departs the gross to be one with him, and this is not DEATH.
25. this whole journey i feel can be accelerated with utmost devotion by means of music and singing from the heart!.


bonded with things of impermanence
bonded with all that is transient by nature
we are bonded to occasions of joy and lamenting
there is no escape from these dualities, but one could try to be in the game and be disconnected from these dualities, like a drop of water on a lotus leaf or like the mercury in a test tube.